Figuratively with Jon

~breathing~ if there were instructions on how to better walk on egg shells with you; I would appreciate them.
Tom Brokaw= Rodney Blago. Not really, but again figuratively. I'll start with the first draft before I rewatch the video again because there are already plenty of things to roll with..........
Besides entertainment, what were the other reasons of Jersey Shore? This is one push where I feel I should think more critically. What is it about the show, or just Jersey itself that needs to be understood? I think I'll be on season 3 when I recieve the next video........
The next thought is even bigger with the idea of philosophy itself. What is being further asked about his corruption?
Is it nature vs. corruption and chaos? Is it nature vs. chaos that is chaos which is supposedly natural?
If it is corruption taken with responsibility, maybe the purpose of it is being asked?
       How many purposes are there?
       Are the corruptions and purposes demanding to be known or unknown?
Does Rodney see himself as a hero despite the label of corruption, or does he see himself as an intentionally hateful, sadistic, predatory type of man?
How much responsibility does Rodney have or ~ahem to you Jon,~ the responsibilty from branches by his chaos?
Maybe this is about competitive credibility being said in a different way........... Still, hero or villan?
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Like I said, I will have to rewatch a few things. I don't know what other things you want to talk about. West west west..... Western Maryland, my new Nine west jeans. Jon, it is an easy statement for me to say: don't think you have me fooled on this. I'll stick with my cliche about typical men wanting satisfaction and power and you wanting to have more satisfaction for the sake of Kim. I don't have anything else to say about that and a lot of other women and things. I feel like I am dying and perhaps you have your own way of wanting me dead.
You do make me feel terrified. There is a lot of personal math I keep to myself in regards to a lot of things that make me feel terrified as well. I don't know what to do from here and if I did, I really wouldn't be thinking out loud about it a whole lot.
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talk talk talk....if there is something else you're trying to get at or talk about, you're going to have to be louder and more obvious with what some of your main punchlines are towards me.

April 30 2012

I have had enough death threats and violence on my end. As for my sister, I do have a few more things to say about her in regards to you. First off, if you were to kill me as well or instead; the odds would not be much different. I have as much of a chance as being murdered. If I were to draw a picture, it is just another large Gadaffi killing a Gadaffi Jr., in which the Jr. is my sister. Negotiation.... hmph. As I've said with a lot of things, I think death threats and murder is another extreme thing to do. It is probably cheaper and easier on your end to just kill somebody rather than fix the system and the corruption. It wouldn't be as time consuming. Although I have issues of "honor killings," as in the last Samuri, I do have understanding. Of course Russia is no Asia and the idea of an "honor killing," with my sister would still be time consuming and probably a financial investment as well. Samuri's and honor killings however are not my main idea.... I think if there was some anguish or anger for my sake from you or anywhere in Russia, it is nice to know that somewhere out there someone experiences emotions like that for me. I'm not saying that in a rude way either, it really is nice to think that someone would feel emotions of anguish or anger for me. I know just how intolerable my sister can be. I know she is very provoking and arrogant. I know she can be a psycho. During the times she gets psychotically arrogant, I want to beat the shit out of her myself. Sometimes, she makes herself impossible to ignore. She begs for the attention for some reason and does not give up on being a relentless, desperate, psycho who seems to live to annoy me to death. I know sometimes I can be harassed by such a large number of people that I have such a stupifying countenance, but I really am very aware of the desperate psycho my sister can be. What I've already said about her and some other people, why are some people given such a big say or any power off of their arrogance? Sometimes, people will arrogantly be judgemental against me when they really want to side with me to make them look like the stalkers and harassers they are, but they really are given too much credit and too much power off of the things they say and do. I find it more offensive when someone gives my sister or another harasser so much credit for either their arrogance, harassment, or whatever attack they are going for. I think it is part of the corruption and torment, but still, I have yet to make sense of a lot of things. If you really were to kill my sister, I really would see it as another Gadaffi killing a Gadaffi Jr. I just think there could be other strategies made. I think there could be other solutions. I think my life should stopped being damned altogether and more action should be taken against all of the rigging, communism, and corruption. OF course there is more to it than just that sentence, but I see the killing as cheap and easy and it does reflect on your leadership. Despite my own anguish and feeling screwed over, I will never believe in karma and think that some people in charge should try harder at fixing things the right way. At this point, I don't care that I'm actually saying "the right way," either. I know what it means to say it and I just don't care.