~breathing~ if there were instructions on how to better walk on egg shells with you; I would appreciate them.
Tom Brokaw= Rodney Blago. Not really, but again figuratively. I'll start with the first draft before I rewatch the video again because there are already plenty of things to roll with..........
Besides entertainment, what were the other reasons of Jersey Shore? This is one push where I feel I should think more critically. What is it about the show, or just Jersey itself that needs to be understood? I think I'll be on season 3 when I recieve the next video........
The next thought is even bigger with the idea of philosophy itself. What is being further asked about his corruption?
Is it nature vs. corruption and chaos? Is it nature vs. chaos that is chaos which is supposedly natural?
If it is corruption taken with responsibility, maybe the purpose of it is being asked?
How many purposes are there?
Are the corruptions and purposes demanding to be known or unknown?
Does Rodney see himself as a hero despite the label of corruption, or does he see himself as an intentionally hateful, sadistic, predatory type of man?
How much responsibility does Rodney have or ~ahem to you Jon,~ the responsibilty from branches by his chaos?
Maybe this is about competitive credibility being said in a different way........... Still, hero or villan?
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Like I said, I will have to rewatch a few things. I don't know what other things you want to talk about. West west west..... Western Maryland, my new Nine west jeans. Jon, it is an easy statement for me to say: don't think you have me fooled on this. I'll stick with my cliche about typical men wanting satisfaction and power and you wanting to have more satisfaction for the sake of Kim. I don't have anything else to say about that and a lot of other women and things. I feel like I am dying and perhaps you have your own way of wanting me dead.
You do make me feel terrified. There is a lot of personal math I keep to myself in regards to a lot of things that make me feel terrified as well. I don't know what to do from here and if I did, I really wouldn't be thinking out loud about it a whole lot.
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talk talk talk....if there is something else you're trying to get at or talk about, you're going to have to be louder and more obvious with what some of your main punchlines are towards me.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Monday, April 30, 2012
April 30 2012
I have had enough death threats and violence on my end. As for my sister, I do have a few more things to say about her in regards to you. First off, if you were to kill me as well or instead; the odds would not be much different. I have as much of a chance as being murdered. If I were to draw a picture, it is just another large Gadaffi killing a Gadaffi Jr., in which the Jr. is my sister.
Negotiation.... hmph. As I've said with a lot of things, I think death threats and murder is another extreme thing to do. It is probably cheaper and easier on your end to just kill somebody rather than fix the system and the corruption. It wouldn't be as time consuming. Although I have issues of "honor killings," as in the last Samuri, I do have understanding. Of course Russia is no Asia and the idea of an "honor killing," with my sister would still be time consuming and probably a financial investment as well. Samuri's and honor killings however are not my main idea....
I think if there was some anguish or anger for my sake from you or anywhere in Russia, it is nice to know that somewhere out there someone experiences emotions like that for me. I'm not saying that in a rude way either, it really is nice to think that someone would feel emotions of anguish or anger for me. I know just how intolerable my sister can be. I know she is very provoking and arrogant. I know she can be a psycho. During the times she gets psychotically arrogant, I want to beat the shit out of her myself. Sometimes, she makes herself impossible to ignore. She begs for the attention for some reason and does not give up on being a relentless, desperate, psycho who seems to live to annoy me to death. I know sometimes I can be harassed by such a large number of people that I have such a stupifying countenance, but I really am very aware of the desperate psycho my sister can be.
What I've already said about her and some other people, why are some people given such a big say or any power off of their arrogance? Sometimes, people will arrogantly be judgemental against me when they really want to side with me to make them look like the stalkers and harassers they are, but they really are given too much credit and too much power off of the things they say and do. I find it more offensive when someone gives my sister or another harasser so much credit for either their arrogance, harassment, or whatever attack they are going for. I think it is part of the corruption and torment, but still, I have yet to make sense of a lot of things.
If you really were to kill my sister, I really would see it as another Gadaffi killing a Gadaffi Jr. I just think there could be other strategies made. I think there could be other solutions. I think my life should stopped being damned altogether and more action should be taken against all of the rigging, communism, and corruption. OF course there is more to it than just that sentence, but I see the killing as cheap and easy and it does reflect on your leadership. Despite my own anguish and feeling screwed over, I will never believe in karma and think that some people in charge should try harder at fixing things the right way. At this point, I don't care that I'm actually saying "the right way," either. I know what it means to say it and I just don't care.
Friday, May 13, 2011
New Topic of Entertainment
Wow, I can't believe how the world is turning. Medvedev, right now you definitely have a better opportunity in selling yourself or to try to give some kind of persuasion.
The corruption and communism in the U.S. keeps getting sicker:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/05/12/texas-10-hottest-female-sex-offenders_n_861331.html?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl1%7Csec1_lnk2%7C62717
It really does offend my intelligence that some people think adding a compliment to "the crime," would kill me.
Medvedev, how does your upfront and honest communism differ from the United States?
I already have some idea of corruption, but have the statistics changed recently?
Do you see it changing anytime soon?
WHen you are communistic, what are the key areas of people that you control? Do you have your own sophistication of choosing how to control individuals?
Do you know any boundaries?
Do you know any grounds of reason?
What are your major fighting factors in competing against the U.S.?
Personally, I think the corruption and communistic fueds between the countries would be entertaining to watch. So, back to square one, how could you ever expect me to take anything seriously in being sold on any competition?
The corruption and communism in the U.S. keeps getting sicker:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/05/12/texas-10-hottest-female-sex-offenders_n_861331.html?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl1%7Csec1_lnk2%7C62717
It really does offend my intelligence that some people think adding a compliment to "the crime," would kill me.
Medvedev, how does your upfront and honest communism differ from the United States?
I already have some idea of corruption, but have the statistics changed recently?
Do you see it changing anytime soon?
WHen you are communistic, what are the key areas of people that you control? Do you have your own sophistication of choosing how to control individuals?
Do you know any boundaries?
Do you know any grounds of reason?
What are your major fighting factors in competing against the U.S.?
Personally, I think the corruption and communistic fueds between the countries would be entertaining to watch. So, back to square one, how could you ever expect me to take anything seriously in being sold on any competition?
Friday, January 21, 2011
Thoughts
I still have yet to figure out a way to make sense of a lot of things.
My mind was sparked though by a recent message. It is just an assumption to roll with. I do not know Medvedev's entire personal philosophy or religious view. But, I really do love talking philosophy sometimes.
Anyway, I had posted a picture on a previous blog: "Ignorance, making people feel self righteous for over 2000 years."
Recently, I think he may have been trying to make a further insinuation with his post where it may be insulting Christianity as a whole. I'm not entirely sure.
I want to clarify where I stand and be a little debating.
It is slightly known from a big perspective that some people view Christians being less intelligent. The view is that some people allow their religion to either go too far or have some kind of mind-washed perspective along with being less intelligent.
I can agree only to an extent, but I also think that there are some people who really are intelligent and have a higher education that still keep the faith.
Generally speaking, I find it easy and simple to keep a non-biased perspective and remember how many other people there are in the world despite how narrow-minded other people allow themselves to be.
Leading to my next idea is just that. Some people are more helpless than others. It really varies with how much support and help a person does have. It also varies with what a particular person decides and chooses to do within limits of helplessness and support. I think the issue of faith really is a major key to this issue where people have that freedom of whether or not they want to keep the faith.
Sadly, while some people are not only tormented by their helplessness, they are further tormented by the higher ups who are responsible for making some decisions for them. I think there are key factors to remember in this: How lazy are the higher ups? How do they make judgement? Are they really fair? How arrogant are they and how much do they allow their own arrogance to dictate their decisions? How corrupt are they? How much research and accountability do they take into regard?
These thoughts are part of my turmoil and hatred of communism and socialism. It takes way too much control, self entitlement and self validation to take ownership of other people. Not just when these higher ups are being possessive, but also when taking too much, people forget that they are imperfect. People do not realize how many fallacies there could be. There are so many things those category of people could fail to see, understand, or fall short with......
..........Some people are real perverts with how they give systematic labels. I have stayed pretty much the same in referring the socialism and communism to slave labor. I will not deny myself humanity and having human rights. I feel no guilt with being angry or hateful when my boundary lines are crossed.
Some people really go too far in crossing the lines as well with their own provokings. I can't help but be a little arrogant when people comment on how blank, unmoved, and calm I can be. I really get provoked often, I get more and more thick skinned through time, although some people can find ways to get a rise out of me from time to time.
............It sickens me with what some people get away with.............
But, back to the beginning. I know there are a lot of people who have been given the authority and delegation to judge. Time after time, I feel regardless, I will always be rigged, set up to fail, and people will deny their dislike and own prejudices to say it isn't them it is me, it is my fault.
I really do feel hopeless and helpless.
I'm tired of relentless stalkers and bickerers.
I'm tired of liars.
Patience is easier said than done.
Standing one's ground is easier said than done.
Enduring and persevering is easier said than done.
With my background and some gained insight: it is impossible and even a suicidal feeling to think of having to lose myself. Just because slave labor is enforced, it does not mean that they have my soul or my heart.
Brings the passion back with the band "My chemical Romance."
Not all the lyrics match me, but I understand to some extent how he feels.
Famous Last Words
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bbTtPL1jRs
Black Parade
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kDWgsQhbaqU
My mind was sparked though by a recent message. It is just an assumption to roll with. I do not know Medvedev's entire personal philosophy or religious view. But, I really do love talking philosophy sometimes.
Anyway, I had posted a picture on a previous blog: "Ignorance, making people feel self righteous for over 2000 years."
Recently, I think he may have been trying to make a further insinuation with his post where it may be insulting Christianity as a whole. I'm not entirely sure.
I want to clarify where I stand and be a little debating.
It is slightly known from a big perspective that some people view Christians being less intelligent. The view is that some people allow their religion to either go too far or have some kind of mind-washed perspective along with being less intelligent.
I can agree only to an extent, but I also think that there are some people who really are intelligent and have a higher education that still keep the faith.
Generally speaking, I find it easy and simple to keep a non-biased perspective and remember how many other people there are in the world despite how narrow-minded other people allow themselves to be.
Leading to my next idea is just that. Some people are more helpless than others. It really varies with how much support and help a person does have. It also varies with what a particular person decides and chooses to do within limits of helplessness and support. I think the issue of faith really is a major key to this issue where people have that freedom of whether or not they want to keep the faith.
Sadly, while some people are not only tormented by their helplessness, they are further tormented by the higher ups who are responsible for making some decisions for them. I think there are key factors to remember in this: How lazy are the higher ups? How do they make judgement? Are they really fair? How arrogant are they and how much do they allow their own arrogance to dictate their decisions? How corrupt are they? How much research and accountability do they take into regard?
These thoughts are part of my turmoil and hatred of communism and socialism. It takes way too much control, self entitlement and self validation to take ownership of other people. Not just when these higher ups are being possessive, but also when taking too much, people forget that they are imperfect. People do not realize how many fallacies there could be. There are so many things those category of people could fail to see, understand, or fall short with......
..........Some people are real perverts with how they give systematic labels. I have stayed pretty much the same in referring the socialism and communism to slave labor. I will not deny myself humanity and having human rights. I feel no guilt with being angry or hateful when my boundary lines are crossed.
Some people really go too far in crossing the lines as well with their own provokings. I can't help but be a little arrogant when people comment on how blank, unmoved, and calm I can be. I really get provoked often, I get more and more thick skinned through time, although some people can find ways to get a rise out of me from time to time.
............It sickens me with what some people get away with.............
But, back to the beginning. I know there are a lot of people who have been given the authority and delegation to judge. Time after time, I feel regardless, I will always be rigged, set up to fail, and people will deny their dislike and own prejudices to say it isn't them it is me, it is my fault.
I really do feel hopeless and helpless.
I'm tired of relentless stalkers and bickerers.
I'm tired of liars.
Patience is easier said than done.
Standing one's ground is easier said than done.
Enduring and persevering is easier said than done.
With my background and some gained insight: it is impossible and even a suicidal feeling to think of having to lose myself. Just because slave labor is enforced, it does not mean that they have my soul or my heart.
Brings the passion back with the band "My chemical Romance."
Not all the lyrics match me, but I understand to some extent how he feels.
Famous Last Words
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bbTtPL1jRs
Black Parade
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kDWgsQhbaqU
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
And other people too
Yesterday, I spent time thinking more about Jared Leto's newest video and it makes sense to have some kind of story come together:
Ok, there are other Middle Eastern countries as well and even African and Asian countries; numerous countries that enable human trafficking. It is part of a tradition of some Hindu, Islamic, Arab and plenty of other cultures.
I think a difference with Russia is that it is not as comparably poor as other countries. This means that even though I think it is wrong irregardless of the wealth factor, that Russia has a larger accountability because they are more wealthy. In reflection of government authority, it is the governement's responsibility for the well-being of their people. Especially since Russia is more communist, the government has more responsibility they bring on themselves.
One interesting thing that I have learned concerning religion is a continued snowflake emphasis that not everyone sees the world the same. People are brought up in various ways; these people think it is the natural and acceptable way to live. I think it varies whether people have issues or not with the way they were brought up. Some people do not mind or care at all. Other people who may have chances to have more experience in life to travel and compare other cultures, have the potential to be jealous of another culture.
I will always believe in free will. Therefore, I believe that any person is able to change and adapt to a new life or culture if it is a choice or direction that they want to follow through with. I do not believe that just because a person was born into some kind of lifestyle that it means they are doomed and damned to live the rest of their life in the way they were brought up.
My focus is on human trafficking, but I have not forgotten about so many other issues that exist. Issues that are simple as a child having no shame for robbery; he steals food for his own survival.
To elaborate more on the issue of human trafficking is not simple at all. I think there are definitely different degrees and subculture traditions that varies when women are subjected to men. I definitely would believe that Russian women are probably more subject to men in comparison to American women.
American women have progressively fought for women's rights throughout the years. Yes, America even has its own dating services. There is match.com, eharmony.com, and numerous other dating services where a woman is in a little more control over her choice of mate. I still am very cynical and believe that human traifficking can still occur in the U.S., however I think the U.S. has lower statistics concerning it.
Like I said there are plenty of other countries that extremely subjects women to men. But in Russia, it is more outspoken and has no shame of its subjectification of women. Russia has even recently publicized its high statistics for domestic violence. They even give attention to their own corrupt justice system. Some women have at least tried to go to the police about the violence they have experienced, but most feel hopeless and give up on the justice system. They discover that the justice system really does not do anything about it. Their media even says that most runaways are eventually found and murdered by their husbands.
... My anger was sparked yesterday. I believe it is Jon that likes to pick at and pull my triggers and leaves me to drown in incompetence. I really do see Jon as a relentless hater that wants to get the best of me. He is upset that I am not at his command and does not give up in puppeting me to be gay and shoving me on women. I am so fed up with his sexual harassments, abuse, and assaults. Jon is a very sick man among other chauvenistic sick men. It isn't about being a gay hater, it is about being sickly abused by another in telling me who to date, love, go to bed with.
Even after all of the obsession over the gay issue, I grow more numb to it. I grow more self-preserved in waiting for the right secure man to come along.
But, back to Jared Leto's video. I acknowledge that he said it is only a dream and not reality. It is still influential, especially when I put some scatterings together.
Would I really kill someone who is either personally responsible for my experienced sexual abuse or a head honcho who is the leader and responsible of other people's experienced sexual abuse? Would I kill them out of being right?
I wonder and think to myself sometimes....... I notice a growing predictability of controlled and even emotionally set up triggered and manipulated environments. I find it so bizarre that some, Jared Leto in this instance, is so outspoken and being dramatic about something that realistically angers me. Maybe some wars are not surprise attacks, maybe it has been before or throughout history a dramatic momentum that builds to explode into a war. It just doesn't seem right or natural to keep creating some kind of a play or broadcast drama concerning real anger and hate.
I think Medvedev has already noticed and made a clear call and catty directive that I am no longer indifferent to him. Yet, I have a weird loyalty.......
I find this all mind blowing with how heard I am concerning this issue. Russia does pay good attention to me. This is why some say that people make their enemies their closest friends.
There is an obvious tension that is progressively building. I hate to feel so obligated or pressured to take some kind of serious action.
Would I kill to be right???????????.......................
To further this, Jared does bring out the politic in me. Hatred/violence begets hatred and violence. This means that it is predictable to assume that most people will draw back and in defense come up with their own opinion and mirror back to the starter: "would I kill you to be right."
Especially with so many religions, there are so many karma gamers out there who want to rig and play games where nobody has clean hands and everyone is guilty of the same issue.
People forget everything about uniqueness and snowflakes to say we are all the same when in fact people do make different choices, actions, and have their own extent of feelings concerning events. It is very sloppy, corrupt, inhumane, and rigged accountability.
This is why I do not have much appreciation to make my thoughts known. I know predictability of others and even smaller fights that it causes over competence, ego feuds over who dumps who with so many codependent or status oriented that they feel their reputation is on the line. There is always the arrogant and pretentious scientist that thinks they know who is best for you. And, as I have already said, until the day I die, the "scientist" will be overlooked, disposed of, and not valued. I reassert my belief in free will and free choice. Anything else is sadistic rape.
In a different trail concerning sexuality, there is a difference between rape and male domination.
Just because I do not like my sexuality to be exploited it does not mean I am insecure over my sexuality. It is something personal, valued, and that I would want to keep to myself and see no point of it being another person's business.
Of all the secrets that are acknowledged and ignored it isn't surprising what is not ignored.
I hate the danger of it. There are still chauvenistic, arrogant, and ignorant men who do not understand my personal sophistication of a sexual wanting. It makes me vulnerable to more ignorant people. In addition, outside of sexuality is the understanding of extent of male domination in the rest of my life. This could definitely be a major issue.
Ok, there are other Middle Eastern countries as well and even African and Asian countries; numerous countries that enable human trafficking. It is part of a tradition of some Hindu, Islamic, Arab and plenty of other cultures.
I think a difference with Russia is that it is not as comparably poor as other countries. This means that even though I think it is wrong irregardless of the wealth factor, that Russia has a larger accountability because they are more wealthy. In reflection of government authority, it is the governement's responsibility for the well-being of their people. Especially since Russia is more communist, the government has more responsibility they bring on themselves.
One interesting thing that I have learned concerning religion is a continued snowflake emphasis that not everyone sees the world the same. People are brought up in various ways; these people think it is the natural and acceptable way to live. I think it varies whether people have issues or not with the way they were brought up. Some people do not mind or care at all. Other people who may have chances to have more experience in life to travel and compare other cultures, have the potential to be jealous of another culture.
I will always believe in free will. Therefore, I believe that any person is able to change and adapt to a new life or culture if it is a choice or direction that they want to follow through with. I do not believe that just because a person was born into some kind of lifestyle that it means they are doomed and damned to live the rest of their life in the way they were brought up.
My focus is on human trafficking, but I have not forgotten about so many other issues that exist. Issues that are simple as a child having no shame for robbery; he steals food for his own survival.
To elaborate more on the issue of human trafficking is not simple at all. I think there are definitely different degrees and subculture traditions that varies when women are subjected to men. I definitely would believe that Russian women are probably more subject to men in comparison to American women.
American women have progressively fought for women's rights throughout the years. Yes, America even has its own dating services. There is match.com, eharmony.com, and numerous other dating services where a woman is in a little more control over her choice of mate. I still am very cynical and believe that human traifficking can still occur in the U.S., however I think the U.S. has lower statistics concerning it.
Like I said there are plenty of other countries that extremely subjects women to men. But in Russia, it is more outspoken and has no shame of its subjectification of women. Russia has even recently publicized its high statistics for domestic violence. They even give attention to their own corrupt justice system. Some women have at least tried to go to the police about the violence they have experienced, but most feel hopeless and give up on the justice system. They discover that the justice system really does not do anything about it. Their media even says that most runaways are eventually found and murdered by their husbands.
... My anger was sparked yesterday. I believe it is Jon that likes to pick at and pull my triggers and leaves me to drown in incompetence. I really do see Jon as a relentless hater that wants to get the best of me. He is upset that I am not at his command and does not give up in puppeting me to be gay and shoving me on women. I am so fed up with his sexual harassments, abuse, and assaults. Jon is a very sick man among other chauvenistic sick men. It isn't about being a gay hater, it is about being sickly abused by another in telling me who to date, love, go to bed with.
Even after all of the obsession over the gay issue, I grow more numb to it. I grow more self-preserved in waiting for the right secure man to come along.
But, back to Jared Leto's video. I acknowledge that he said it is only a dream and not reality. It is still influential, especially when I put some scatterings together.
Would I really kill someone who is either personally responsible for my experienced sexual abuse or a head honcho who is the leader and responsible of other people's experienced sexual abuse? Would I kill them out of being right?
I wonder and think to myself sometimes....... I notice a growing predictability of controlled and even emotionally set up triggered and manipulated environments. I find it so bizarre that some, Jared Leto in this instance, is so outspoken and being dramatic about something that realistically angers me. Maybe some wars are not surprise attacks, maybe it has been before or throughout history a dramatic momentum that builds to explode into a war. It just doesn't seem right or natural to keep creating some kind of a play or broadcast drama concerning real anger and hate.
I think Medvedev has already noticed and made a clear call and catty directive that I am no longer indifferent to him. Yet, I have a weird loyalty.......
I find this all mind blowing with how heard I am concerning this issue. Russia does pay good attention to me. This is why some say that people make their enemies their closest friends.
There is an obvious tension that is progressively building. I hate to feel so obligated or pressured to take some kind of serious action.
Would I kill to be right???????????.......................
To further this, Jared does bring out the politic in me. Hatred/violence begets hatred and violence. This means that it is predictable to assume that most people will draw back and in defense come up with their own opinion and mirror back to the starter: "would I kill you to be right."
Especially with so many religions, there are so many karma gamers out there who want to rig and play games where nobody has clean hands and everyone is guilty of the same issue.
People forget everything about uniqueness and snowflakes to say we are all the same when in fact people do make different choices, actions, and have their own extent of feelings concerning events. It is very sloppy, corrupt, inhumane, and rigged accountability.
This is why I do not have much appreciation to make my thoughts known. I know predictability of others and even smaller fights that it causes over competence, ego feuds over who dumps who with so many codependent or status oriented that they feel their reputation is on the line. There is always the arrogant and pretentious scientist that thinks they know who is best for you. And, as I have already said, until the day I die, the "scientist" will be overlooked, disposed of, and not valued. I reassert my belief in free will and free choice. Anything else is sadistic rape.
In a different trail concerning sexuality, there is a difference between rape and male domination.
Just because I do not like my sexuality to be exploited it does not mean I am insecure over my sexuality. It is something personal, valued, and that I would want to keep to myself and see no point of it being another person's business.
Of all the secrets that are acknowledged and ignored it isn't surprising what is not ignored.
I hate the danger of it. There are still chauvenistic, arrogant, and ignorant men who do not understand my personal sophistication of a sexual wanting. It makes me vulnerable to more ignorant people. In addition, outside of sexuality is the understanding of extent of male domination in the rest of my life. This could definitely be a major issue.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
My sister?
Hmmm. I'm a little puzzled at the conversation. I don't know if sharing drama with another country really counts as "treason," against my country.
Anyway, the most obvious catty guess is that you may be trying to conversate with me about my sister with the name Anna Politkovskaya. First off, in literal terms, I give sympathy and respects to her and her mission. This is the first time I have heard of her in real life. When it comes to being a humanitarian, I give support and do not like to bring a discord of competition. Competence can always be an issue when it comes to anything, but I don't want to compete with it right now.
As for my sister, it sounds like someone else already shared info, or you guys actually had spies to spy on my sister for some reason.?
Yes, I see you are dangerous. I am a sensible person, and the idea of carrying on talks and getting somewhat closer is not an easy or sensible idea to me. I know my own country is capable of danger and have already been threatened by some people, but Russia still seems more dangerous.
It is easier to be a fighter from and in a different country when it comes to sexual harassment. When attempts are made to conversate at info that has already been compromised, I feel no choice but to keep walking in your direction. I don't see why I should run.
I also did see the comment that it looks like you blame Maggie for negative drama, but I'm still not convinced that Dmitri or some other Russian may be serious about being on good terms.
Anyway, about my sister. I'm sure if you saw me give her the flowers, you must have also seen the note. You guys need to keep in mind the fact that we are sisters. You paint her in good character, and I'm sure she has achieved many positive fights for women's rights. BUT, when male drama is with me and my sister, it is not the same story, same intent or motive.
In recent times, I have actually called her Russia Jr, because her cat is in a movie with Josh. Josh is the psycho ex lover that inspired me to be an innovator of Precious. It is my displaced feelings that should have gone towards Josh andd not my family. A little truthful with my family, but exaggerated. Their abuse is verbal, sick, and psychological.
Put two and two together. Katie + Josh + me as their "baby daughter" = Sadism.
Its not something that can be reasoned with. Its not something I would even come close to considering. Katie could easily say: "Oh, she is just closed-minded and we need to teach her a lesson." She does have a very competitive attitude of domination from time to time. It was what drives me to constantly remind her that we are different people who have made different decisions in life. What is ok, normal, or acceptable to her, is not in the same terms in my personal book.
Even in history, she played a role in sending me to the hospital. I think people really did have a sadistic intent and motive to drive me insane. So many people want to be the "boss," and call all shots in my life and be clueless to what I really think or feel. Its pointless. There was no regard. In the beginning, when I was naive to their sadism, I was a little more fair with my thoughts. But then, I realized nobody was taking me for my word, I felt raped although it wasn't a sexual rape. It was very tormenting and torturous because not only was I being ignored and neglected, but I was far from being on the same page as some people. We both knew they were trying to talk to me, but I was extremely lost in so many ways.
I gave a list of suspects to the people I thought was responsible, but I really don't know who shares the most responsibility in the large organized crime.
It was disgusting though to see her and other girls treat me like their barbie doll. They seemed to know more about "my relationships," than I did. I just don't see the why, the purpose, the reason for a number of girls to feel that they are the constant mediators of "the relationships I was in." It was always done in a catty connective way. My sister sometimes dated guys that had the same name of a different guy that was "dating," me. You want to talk about driving me insane when the guy didn't even approach me in person? ugh. I still don't get it to this day.
It might have been a karma game from a guy in high school. He might have blown it way out of proportion when there was only one example of having a shared conversation with another about him. If so, I think he is psycho in obsessing and taking it so far to organized crime and trafficking. Personally, I think it is victimization of isolation.
When in a relationship, I like things to be between me and my man. We are the ultimate decision makers in the relationship (though I havn't been in one for eternity). But, I consider myself to have an already balanced adult perspective with keeping secrets with different people and "my lover." The thing is, its hard to say there has really ever been a lover.
I feel that people moreso, sit back in assumptions and do nothing but constant grilling. It's almost like the guy tries too hard to prove that his pursuit is not trustworthy, and gangs up on her with her friends, enemies, and ex-friends. How would someone call that a relationship, or even want to spend anymore time in being in one like that?
Like I said, I am a FELLOW supporter of other humanitarians and balanced feminists. But, my sister or any other random person, I will not be controlled or mothered by one. There is a difference with opinion and criticism vs. subjecting a person as their doll. If there is ever a positive motive of giving me relief with some torment, it would be shared support in teaching people how to unsubjectively talk to others. Unsubjective talk seems that right now, it should be taken to the exteme: Nonpossessiveness, leaving room for all rights of an individual, acknowledge the person.
Anyway, the most obvious catty guess is that you may be trying to conversate with me about my sister with the name Anna Politkovskaya. First off, in literal terms, I give sympathy and respects to her and her mission. This is the first time I have heard of her in real life. When it comes to being a humanitarian, I give support and do not like to bring a discord of competition. Competence can always be an issue when it comes to anything, but I don't want to compete with it right now.
As for my sister, it sounds like someone else already shared info, or you guys actually had spies to spy on my sister for some reason.?
Yes, I see you are dangerous. I am a sensible person, and the idea of carrying on talks and getting somewhat closer is not an easy or sensible idea to me. I know my own country is capable of danger and have already been threatened by some people, but Russia still seems more dangerous.
It is easier to be a fighter from and in a different country when it comes to sexual harassment. When attempts are made to conversate at info that has already been compromised, I feel no choice but to keep walking in your direction. I don't see why I should run.
I also did see the comment that it looks like you blame Maggie for negative drama, but I'm still not convinced that Dmitri or some other Russian may be serious about being on good terms.
Anyway, about my sister. I'm sure if you saw me give her the flowers, you must have also seen the note. You guys need to keep in mind the fact that we are sisters. You paint her in good character, and I'm sure she has achieved many positive fights for women's rights. BUT, when male drama is with me and my sister, it is not the same story, same intent or motive.
In recent times, I have actually called her Russia Jr, because her cat is in a movie with Josh. Josh is the psycho ex lover that inspired me to be an innovator of Precious. It is my displaced feelings that should have gone towards Josh andd not my family. A little truthful with my family, but exaggerated. Their abuse is verbal, sick, and psychological.
Put two and two together. Katie + Josh + me as their "baby daughter" = Sadism.
Its not something that can be reasoned with. Its not something I would even come close to considering. Katie could easily say: "Oh, she is just closed-minded and we need to teach her a lesson." She does have a very competitive attitude of domination from time to time. It was what drives me to constantly remind her that we are different people who have made different decisions in life. What is ok, normal, or acceptable to her, is not in the same terms in my personal book.
Even in history, she played a role in sending me to the hospital. I think people really did have a sadistic intent and motive to drive me insane. So many people want to be the "boss," and call all shots in my life and be clueless to what I really think or feel. Its pointless. There was no regard. In the beginning, when I was naive to their sadism, I was a little more fair with my thoughts. But then, I realized nobody was taking me for my word, I felt raped although it wasn't a sexual rape. It was very tormenting and torturous because not only was I being ignored and neglected, but I was far from being on the same page as some people. We both knew they were trying to talk to me, but I was extremely lost in so many ways.
I gave a list of suspects to the people I thought was responsible, but I really don't know who shares the most responsibility in the large organized crime.
It was disgusting though to see her and other girls treat me like their barbie doll. They seemed to know more about "my relationships," than I did. I just don't see the why, the purpose, the reason for a number of girls to feel that they are the constant mediators of "the relationships I was in." It was always done in a catty connective way. My sister sometimes dated guys that had the same name of a different guy that was "dating," me. You want to talk about driving me insane when the guy didn't even approach me in person? ugh. I still don't get it to this day.
It might have been a karma game from a guy in high school. He might have blown it way out of proportion when there was only one example of having a shared conversation with another about him. If so, I think he is psycho in obsessing and taking it so far to organized crime and trafficking. Personally, I think it is victimization of isolation.
When in a relationship, I like things to be between me and my man. We are the ultimate decision makers in the relationship (though I havn't been in one for eternity). But, I consider myself to have an already balanced adult perspective with keeping secrets with different people and "my lover." The thing is, its hard to say there has really ever been a lover.
I feel that people moreso, sit back in assumptions and do nothing but constant grilling. It's almost like the guy tries too hard to prove that his pursuit is not trustworthy, and gangs up on her with her friends, enemies, and ex-friends. How would someone call that a relationship, or even want to spend anymore time in being in one like that?
Like I said, I am a FELLOW supporter of other humanitarians and balanced feminists. But, my sister or any other random person, I will not be controlled or mothered by one. There is a difference with opinion and criticism vs. subjecting a person as their doll. If there is ever a positive motive of giving me relief with some torment, it would be shared support in teaching people how to unsubjectively talk to others. Unsubjective talk seems that right now, it should be taken to the exteme: Nonpossessiveness, leaving room for all rights of an individual, acknowledge the person.
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